It is often not enough

Suddenly feels like blogging…and I realized the last blog was more than 6 months ago…wow, you can call it ancient history. Feeling quite down recently, with Sharon’s issue and we met up and had a talk. And she also makes me realize, in a relationship, LOVE is often not enough. I guess a lot of mutual communication is necessary. How to keep a relationship happy? No, nothing big is happening in our relationship, but can there be something wrong? When I ponder upon the relationship, very often, reality struck and I realize there are soo many ups and downs in our relationship. I tried, I really did. But sometimes it is just me, it is who I am, and I am trying to change for him. But I felt it is not reciprocated, not in a mean way of saying he is bad, but sometimes I’ll have that kind of self-pitiness for myself. HAH. Am I trying too hard to make this work that I may be losing myself? Hahha, ok, maybe it is not that dramatic…. just crazy me, thinking in a weird land….

Updates

It’s been ancient since I last blogged…and all these blogging stuffs seems so aliened to me…. Blogging… I almost forgot how to login and post a message…. All these blogging of my life…a record of the happenings that are not at all “happening” seems secondary to all that has happened in my life…. Oh well… let’s get down to business ….

Firstly, yeah…it’s holiday…and it ain’t that exciting after all… when exams are all that I have in my life other than God and DUR…. Waking up, washing up, studying, breakfast, studying, lunch, studying, shower, studying, dinner, TV, studying….and basically, I can only see books, papers and never ending theories, graphs, formulae, practices and more theories… Holiday seems so much more exciting, something that I would really look forward to… yeah, I’m glad it’s all over now… before the rat race begins all over again in January, I have bout a month to enjoy myself…. But what I have left is a messy room that looks like the after math of a war in Afghanistan…. Maybe…not so bad…but it is truly horrendous….after moving back for good from the hostel, my room is in the worst state that I can ever imagine….other than that, I’m glad that I’ve got a new phone…a pink razor V3….MUHAHAHHA….

Ok, other than the stupid cleaning up that doesn’t add on to any tinge of neatness in my room I watched some silly cartoons with my brother who was attacked by some virus, had a temperature and laid on the bed….watched extreme ghostbusters, hi-5, some man and dog cartoon about his “intelligent” inventions, spongebob square pants and la la la…. Ok, my life is soooo exciting….

Hmm, oh ya, Lydia babe called me this morning, hahahah, she’s in Singapore and heading to Penang for 2 weeks and after 2 weeks she’ll be here till February YEAH!!! Some good company soon…

Many things happened, so much to handle, URGH, but oh well, who cares, URGH…. But oh well…. Life….goes…on….

38.9 degree celsius

I was very very sick yesterday….having 38.9 Degree Celsius fever, sore throat, coughs….. the nurse took blood test….poked my left arm….and realized that the blood don flow after about 1 minute…that 60 seconds are agonizing ….when no blood flow….she release it….and I can see stars…..feel like puking….super cold….and very giddy….. then another nurse came and tried on my right help…OMG…..but this time…the blood FLOW….URGH……. and I rested on the bed….while they took the blood for some testing…… while laying on my bed…I was thinking...hmm, if it is dengue…. Then I will get my friend to take my laptop and homework to the hospital…because I can’t afford laying there for the whole day or week…. Hmm…but thank GOD….it’s viral infection….for the first time, I’m glad I am sick but not with dengue… but still feel sickly…. The doctor gave me 3 days MC…….. and I was told that I can’t do any exercise for the time being….so…. an excuse to be lazy….sleep the whole of yesterday…watch TV…..and thank God for him to take care of me yesterday…he was WORST than my mum, keep nagging and stopping me from covering myself with blanket…..what have I got myself into…HAHAHA

History

It's being a while since i last blog....... he is asking me what stuff am i doing....just writing blog lor.... DUH....it's being millions of years i guess....lotsa of stuff happen.... some nice ...some not so nice.... missed out lots of stuff to blog....but oh well.... somethings can be kept in memory instead huh....

Stupid self...

I hate myself, I hate myself for being soooo forgetful….super sad now…. I book my driving lesson today…and you know what…I FORGET TO ATTEND….it’s $58.80….:(

Super sad now…don’t talk to me about driving…I hate it….URGH…………. so stupid…..

BUSY

Being busy busy again....lots of stuffs.... pagent.....catwalk lessons....going to Sharon's bday later....and at 5.32 PM which is now....I am super tired....having catwalk lesson at 615PM later.....and ZOUK....haiz...super tired....Sharon, you must be Gan Dong hor.....

Happy Bday to me!

Ok, my single gang is in my hostel room now...chit chatting....common topic....guys....guys...and still guys...oh well...sometimes about school...but mainly still guys.... HAHAHA watever

And the pic i took with jason is slow...transfering....slow....sleepy....tired....slow....

oh...and SMU guys are cute.... at least I heard from all my friends...(which only includes elf and yvonne)....anyway...ya...they are rich...gd looking.... eloquent....

i am cutting my cake later...strawberry cheesecake...HAHAHAHHAHAHA....my third cake..... HAHAHAHAHAH......ciao